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Kim var alvorlig deprimert. (Foto: Kims blogg)
11.10 Christina Kim:
Tok
nesten sitt eget liv - LPGA Tour ikke bare en dans på roser
På toppnivå i golf er det ikke bare fryd og gammen. Vi har sett en rekke
tragiske hendelser. Christina Kim hoppet nesten i Middelhavet - for godt. Nå går
det bedre.
Blant de beste spillerne har vi sett ekteskapsbrudd, alkoholproblemer, alvorlig
sykdom og annet som viser at de beste spillerne har sitt å slite med som de
fleste andre i befolkningen. Christina Kim har stått fram med sin historie.
I en artikkel på golfweek.com står det at hun var like ved å gjøre slutt på
livet ved å drukne seg i Middelhavet i april 2011 da hun spilte LET's Euro
Nations Cup sammen med Brittany Lincicome i Europa.
Artikkelen i Golfweek
Hennes depresjon var alvorlig. Hun skrev et langt innlegg på sin egen blogg.
Her starter hun slik:
"I guess it’s time to address the elephant in the room
July 18, 2012 by TheChristinaKim
PLEASE NOTE: THIS IS A POST REGARDING MY BATTLE WITH DEPRESSION. THOUGHTS AND
VIEWS HERE BELONG SOLELY TO ME, CHRISTINA KIM, AND NOT THOSE OF THE LPGA."
Den skjebnesvangre massasjen
Hun fikk massasje i forbindelse med the Asian Swing i 2010. Hun ble vrikket og
vridd på og det skjedde noe med ryggen "I got stretched and bent towards the end
of the massage so deeply, I felt my spine give a yelp, and my L5-S1 got some
form of a strain."
Dårlig spill
Hun mistet mye lengde i slagene. Om det var dårlig spill som førte til
depresjon, eller om det var depresjon som førte til dårlig spill, er usikkert.
Hun forsøkte med en lengre sving.
Hun er nå nr 110 på pengelisten. Hun må spille kvalifisering for å beholde
kortet på LPGA Touren. Litt av en nedtur for en spiller som har vunnet over 4
millioner dollar og gjerne har ligget fra nr 15 til 58 de siste årene helt siden
2004.
John Dalys chip shot-sving
Hun skriver: "Twenty months later, I was overswinging to the point that I made
John Daly’s backswing look like a chip shot."
Selvmordstankene
En kveld under ovenfor nevnte Nations Cup var det like før hun tok livet av seg.
Mange har opplevd selvmord i sin nærhet. Det gjelder å fange opp signalene slik
at vi kan redde mennesker som har det som mørkest. Noen ganger klarer vi det,
andre ganger klarer vi det ikke.
Her er hva Christina Kim selv skrev om sine tanker fra den kvelden:
"That evening, during a players’ party, held in a beautiful building overlooking
the ocean, I went for a walk around. There was loud music, delicious food, wine
and champagne flowed freely, and the inescapable sound of laughter. None of that
appealed to me in the least. All I wanted was to be alone with my thoughts. I
walked around the entire building, searching for some solitude, when I came
across a corner overlooking the ocean that was not only unoccupied, but was also
completely free of anything related to the party. I stood at the corner, gazing
down at the Mediterranean, and leaned over. It was quiet, peaceful, and oh how I
wanted to be a part of that silence! It was too easy, for me to just step over
the wall of the building, as it was only waist high, and plummet two stories
into the ocean. Though it seems I was born with two rather, robust, floatation
devices already built in, I am about as hydro dynamically built as a rock. I am
not what people would call a swimmer, and a leap into the depths of the
Mediterranean would have surely been sufficient enough for me to drown. I was so
close to leaping over the edge, but a flurry of nonstop phone calls from Duncan,
as well as me having the keys to the car, were the only reasons I didn’t go. It
wasn’t because I had some sort of “light at the end of the tunnel” BS thoughts.
I knew at the time I had a wonderful life, with my golf game able to rise from
the ashes, a wonderful man in my life who loves me for who I am, regardless of
my looks or my golf game or how much money I have to my name, and the
opportunity to travel to some of the most exotic places on Earth. But none of
that mattered. Somehow, I was able to block it out, or maybe it wasn’t enough
for me. All I could focus on were the negative thoughts that were dragging me
down, as if I was already inhaling water into my lungs, getting pulled away from
the surface of the ocean. In the end, a well placed phone call, and me being
stupid enough to not pass the keys over to someone else, kept me from going
overboard."
(les
hele bloggen her)
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